Same Cycle

Why do I find myself in this same cycle? 
I’m 24 years old and I feel like a whiny-ass sixteen  year old complaining about “love.”
Seriously.  
I give him everything, and every part of me. Maybe that’s a mistake, but it’s what I want to do. I don’t do things for him out of obligation, but out of passion. 
“you shouldn’t tell him everything. you shouldn’t give him everything he wants. it’s a game you need to know to play.” 
I’m sorry, I’m too old for games like that.

I make this so simple. I tell you what I want, what I need. I don’t make you guess when I’m upset. Then you get upset at me for my wants and needs? 
You complain. 
This makes it so hard to believe that there are men out there who would do anything to keep their woman happy. At least, that’s the bait you fed me. I’m stupid enough to have bit it. 

I’m going against what I believe in to stay.  
I’m settling, again. I’m compromising, again. 
I.
I’m staying because I’m tired of always leaving when it gets shitty for me.  Maybe this is just some tough bumps and we’ll get over it.
I’m staying because I love him too much to leave.  

I need to learn to love myself more, again. I need more self worth than what this “relationship,” gives me.  

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I want all my sundays to be fundays

just as the little things can me happy, the absence of little things can make me upset.

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Act of being thankful.

Here’s my NTS: Be thankful. 

It’s two simple words with much more behind them.  
Today I realized it’s what I don’t do enough.  It isn’t enough to just say “Thank you,” to Him to be thankful.  It’s the act of being thankful.  

So here are my own self reflections I want to work on, and hopefully spark some insight by what I mean: 

I am thankful for:

1) family-in this, I need to make more effort in calling and emailing my parents and brothers.  I need to show them more appreciation, even if it is just a couple sentences.  I noticed that a little attention goes a long way.  

2) healthy body- yeah, I do know I need to stop abusing it with substances.  I’m only human.  I’m working out, and eating as healthy as I can most days.  I could always do more though.  I should also use it more to volunteer, and do for others what they can’t do themselves.  That goes in line with my future profession.

3) a car- yeah, it’s not my dream car but it is superficial to btch about a vehicle that brings me from point A to B.  It was given to me from my parents too, the best I can do is to take care of it.  Keeping it clean, regular maintenance. 

4) Rikku- I need to stay on top of her shots game..it’s hard when it’s $$$ -__-.  But I spend time with her at night, and give her love haha. Noted.

5) A roof over my head- oh I try to keep it clean, and taking care of the things my parents have paid for. It’s not my money, and it’s the best I’ve been trying. 

6) S.O.N.- I constantly bitch and cry about the stresses.  To be thankful for education is to study, and prioritize correctly.  Keep trying my best.  Applying what I know to help others.

7) Job- Even if it’s not my profession, or what I want to do in the future, it’s what I have right now.  (Remain punctual, and do work with integrity»Goes for anything)

8) Relationships- Ask how friends are doing time to time. Spend time with them when I can.  Make time.  Same with my bf. 

Not like I’m going to perfect all this in a day, but it’s just what’s been on my mind to do.
Take care of the people and the things you have.  
  

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True.  Ambition is a word I’ve heard being abused.  Just like with love, you can’t convince or have it without the effort to back it up.  Efforts and affirmative action over everything.  You can have a vision but that’s all it’ll ever be if you don’t do work. Doesn’t mean you have to go big at once, a little goes a long way too.

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